I know I don't tell you this often enough, but, well... it's not something I can easily put into words. It's something about the way you look, and you're always there for me when I need you. It's just that, well, we've been through a lot together, you know? And I can't tell you how much that means to me.
I think about you all the time... Just now I was thinking of a way to come and see you. You know, make it look like I was just in the area... What can I say? I like being with you, I like your smell, the way you feel when I hold you. It hurts me every time others beat up on you--the way they tear at you, throw you against the wall, tape you, punch holes in you, or give you unnecessary tattoos.
I know you've been with others, but I see past all that when I look at you. Past the dings, the creases--your age doesn't scare me off (if anything, it only excites me more).

And it's not like I don't have my flaws--I do. Plenty. I admire that you don't ask me to change. But I will change for you if you ask.
I want us to grow old together, get a house somewhere and just fill it up. I want you in every room. Up against the walls and on the desk, in the bedroom and out in the garage. When I get home from work, when I wake up in the morning.
What can I say? I love you. I think I knew it the moment I first laid eyes on you, over 20 years ago. Why couldn't I say it before? I've thought about telling you many times, but the time never seemed right. I dunno, I guess I was nervous about how you'd react.
I couldn't keep it inside any longer. I understand if you never want to see me again. This is a lot to lay on someone seemingly out of the blue. Just know that there's no one else out there for me. I've done a lot of thinking about this and there's no one I'd rather be with. Not today, not tomorrow, not ever. There's only you.
Yours,
Ben
Hey, that's my girl you're talking about!
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